So, I’ve registered for the Poetry Jam and am awaiting more information from a Tom Taylor. I went through my usual routine of being charming and witty in e-mail and all I got was something to the effect of “you’ll be receiving further information soon”. How anticlimactic.
Perhaps I expect too much from people.
So, I am faced with two options: composing two new works or recycling some old. I have a lot of extra credit to catch up with, along with a midterm exam, and a project to work on in the next two weeks. If I don’t compose something immaculate during a drunken stupor, I really don’t know what I’m going to do other than reach into my bag of old tricks.
In case I am not blessed with an epiphany or I just resume creative writing laziness, I will contemplate using these:
Option 1:
I thought about you
I thought about you
and the way your fingers grazed my lips
your fingertips
tasted of saline
and the sway of my hips
matched the slow rhythm
of Miles Davis’
I Thought About You
and the way your tongue
Accelerates
positively and negatively
in my mouth.
Your strength berates
my inhibitions
I’m in transition
for a new disposition
and
I thought about you
with your “I’m so cool
without even trying” hair
I’m lain bare
In despair
for pressure
More
pressure
please
I can’t take the lightness
of touch
It is not enough
I’m not asking for it rough
I
just need you
to break through
I
knead
you
hard, not light
Despite
The love that is here
Do not have fear
of Breaking me
I won’t break
I know what I can take
But
I am ready to
test the threshold.
Option 2:
Dissatisfied
I am not pacified
I am dissatisfied
I watch my finger tremble
from the anxiety inside
I am a careless drifter
I move with the tides
I am a faithless person
all trust denied
I simply can’t abide
with how society’s inclined
So now I decline
what you have to offer
there is a place for me
in some other dimension
I must transcend
this burden of reality
I don’t need a friend
to take with me
they dissatisfy
they cannot pacify
I am alone in life
with all my strife
I am a selfish one
an egocrentric one
My world is I
My world is I
Your time has come
So what if you come undone
Your world is you
Your world is you
We are selfish ones
Always hungry for more
We are not pacified
We are dissatisfied
Option 3:
Formulating Denials
Visiting the inquisitive with my illicit hogwash
Introspective and indulgent
my perspective is tarnished
tainted by the wear and tear
of every day life
painted in coats of flair and dar-ing
and every day strife.
“Give me peace,” I say
but this lease on life, I’ve yet to pay
in full, but every day
it takes its toll
more and more
I’ve begun to abhor
this dungeon I’ll live in forever more
I’m a pimple
on the face of humanity
nothing’s simple
when I’m on the verge of insanity
I’m losing grasp
I may just snap
my syntax has lapsed
I need to be slapped
back into normalcy
but the formality
of reality
is enough to make me retch
I’m a corporate wench
satan’s hench-woman
and I still worship man
denying myself
of mortal health
I’ll remain in this state
seal my fate
until the date mortality meets immortality
I’m tired, yet inspired
and I’ll let this run its course
until I’m absolved
no longer involved
in the iniquities of man
I’m searching for tranquility
possibly unearthing infinity
on this journey to serenity
but I bide my time
never truly crossing the line
because in a hack’s life
nothing is ever really accomplished
Do not be astonished
Even though I lie
I wouldn’t deny
My ability to see glimpses of truth
though my perspective’s skewed
truth is subdued
still alluded to
through the lies you despise
I’ve bought into satan’s franchise
and we’re selling lies
hiring spies
and targeting humanity
this is a tragedy
I take part in
but you’re no victim
you are an assassin
and if you don’t believe that
you’re in denial just like me